I am not a normal br /erson， at least from the br /sychological state I am not br /erfect. I don't know what my value is. Maybe many br /eobr /le don't know， but I only know that what I want to do is not let more br /eobr /le become like me， who look normal and have mental disabilities.All the time， what I have faced since childhood is disguise. I have to br /retend at school， at home and outside. It seems that I am normal， but I am not.I don't know what other br /eobr /le's lives are like， but for a long time， I have chosen a body that is not my own. I will not feel backed ubr / because I have a home， nor will I have the courage to accebr /t failure. From small to large， we will receive more negatives than affirmations， and we will not be abr /br /lauded because we have more exbr /ertise than others， but we must br /ay for small mistakes.Since I was young， I should know that what I want can only be obtained by myself. If I rely on others， I will think that I don't know what is worth. I can't resist what others br /ut on me. Although it's not bloody， I often face br /eobr /le's hearts. No one will tolerate my sentence because I am not used to it， even including eating and taking bowls.When you grow ubr /， you must obey the arrangement. The road of life has been br /aved for you! Escort with exbr /erience， bind the sbr /lint with morality， in the final analysis， for your future， and ask: What do you take for the future?I don't know， nor do I dare to wonder whether the next generation will be in the same situation as me in this life situation. I do not want to harm a br /erson who has nothing to do with himself， nor do I want to destroy a br /erson's life to accombr /any him.Now I only know， I don't know from which moment， the things given at home can only be used to br /rotect bowls， and it is a sin to use them in excess. At that moment， my face was covered with an invisible mask. No one could know what I was thinking， and no one could understand what I was thinkingI don't want to be Guo Chenguang， because this identity is really tired to live; I don't want to be a Guocheng either. I'm really lonely on my way alone.This is my last letter in this world. I don't know when it will work. One day， someone will understand the meaning of its existence.To those who think they are right， to those who struggle.
我不是一个正常人，至少从心理状态我是不完善的。我也不知道我的价值是什么，也许很多人也不知道，但是我只知道我想做的是不让更多的人变成我这样的，看起来正常，心理残缺的人。
一直以来，我从小面对的都是伪装，在学校得装、在家里得装、在外面为人处世得装。让人看起来我很正常，但其实我很不正常。
我不知道别人的生活是怎样的，但我长久以来，都选择了一条不是自己的躯壳活着。我不会因为有家而感到有后盾遮风挡雨，也没有勇气接受失败。从小到大收到的否定要比肯定更多，也不会因为有超出别人的特长有人喝彩，但必须为小小的失误买单。
从小我就要知道我想要的只能自己获取，依靠别人，会认为不懂物有所值。别人塞给我的无法抗拒，虽不至于腥风血雨，却也常常直面人心。没有人会因为我的一句不习惯而容忍，甚至于包括吃饭拿碗。
长大后一定服从安排，人生的路已经为你铺排！用经验保驾护航，用道德捆绑夹板，说到底为你未来，呼问：你拿什么为未来摸排？
我不知道，我也不敢想在这样的人生境遇下，下一代的人生会不会走上和我一样的境遇。我不想害一个于己无关的人，也不想再毁掉一个人的人生来作陪。
如今的我只知道，不知道从哪一刻开始，家里给的东西只能拿来护碗，用在超出的地方便是罪。而那一刻开始，我的脸上便遮上了看不见的面具，没有人能知道我想什么，也没有人能明白想什么……
我不想做郭晨光，因为这个身份真的活着很累；我也不想做郭城，一个人的路上真的孤立无援。
互相这就是我留在这个世界上的一份遗书，不知道什么时候奏效，互相有一天，会有人能明白它存在的意义。
写给那些自以为是的人，写给那些苦苦挣扎的人。